I am good in an emergency. I’m the one you want around when the “you know what” hits the fan. I know this because I’ve been there.
I’ve jumped into the shallow end to save a child. I’ve given compressions to a stranger. I’ve stopped the bleeding.
But where I tend to have moments of panic is in the long, winding, often lonely road of mundane obedience known as the journey of faith. Where I tend to resist and push back and demand and lose my patience is in the emptying of precious energy, the sacrifice of creative thought for busy tasks, and the shearing and wearing of an already weary heart.
When Gray’s Anatomy meets Naked and Afraid, I want to tap out and revert to a childhood of watching the Love Boat!
Anybody with me?
I am good in an emergency because deep in the recesses of my emotionally saturated frontal lobe, I know I can fall to pieces later in the still and quiet hours.
It’s in the fullness of the hustle and bustle when I most desperately need the fullness of Christ. When the arrows of information overload strike like an automatic cyber-weapon and the needing and wanting of others drain the batteries of love and kindness into the red zone, I need the filling and fullness of the Spirit pulsing through my veins making His way to my wavering heart.
Just like the old hymn says, “Jesus, how I need thee, every hour I need thee”, especially between the hours of 8pm to 11pm!
How about you?
What hour(s) of the day does your flesh try to overshadow your faith? Is there a time of day when you feel most vulnerable? Try setting a reminder a couple hours before that time and start praying for the Spirit of Christ to stir in your heart and mind. Allow your weaknesses and vulnerabilities to become His strength.
“But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”
2 Corinthians 12:9 ESV